opening up.

So I thought now might be as good a time as any to talk about this on my blog.  I've written this post about a thousand times and I've deleted it about that many times too.  I just wasn't sure if I was ready to share.  I kept thinking, well soon I will have some good news to share and then I can talk about how all of this happened to me "way back when".  Well, since that hasn't exactly been the way our story has unfolded, I decided to finally write a bit about a journey my husband and I have been on for the past few years.  We have been struggling to have a baby.  It's been a long road filled with many ups and downs.  We tried for 2 years to get pregnant without it ever happening.  The good news, we did FINALLY get pregnant via an IUI treatment, but I miscarried at 9 weeks.  I keep trying to focus on the positive...I did get pregnant.  In our journey of infertility, even getting preggo in the first place was a big huge gigantic hurdle we overcame, so in one sense we are so very lucky.  Many couples go on for years of unsuccessful fertility treatments, never once getting to hear any good news.  So we are hopeful, so very hopeful.  And we've met some wonderful people along the way...some bloggers, some friends of friends, some complete strangers that I now call friends.  You see the thing is, I didn't know anyone close to me that has struggled with this, so in the beginning I felt very alone, but now that I have been able to talk about what has happened I feel so much better.  I no longer feel lonely.  So, I guess my point in even writing this blog post is the hope that I can make even one person feel a little less alone.  To let you know that my life is not all about sequins and parties and vacations.  It is a REAL life with many many many wonderful moments, but some very difficult ones as well.  G and I know that we will one day have our happy little family, whichever way the journey leads us.

{photo by me}